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i used to feel a lot of shame over these artworks, so much so that i almost decided not to share them here. not because they're bad, but because of the complete opposite- the fact that i believe these arts are way more technically sound and visually appealing than what i make in 2023-24.

i think that the fear of 'getting worse' is one that's prevalent among artists, and i especially had internalized this a lot in early 2023, when i started diverging from my usual art program. during this time i was noticing stagnation in my 'improvement,' and i felt such panic over it,, but now looking back, i think that's dramatic to say. (1)well duh i'm rusty, i'm using a newer program. (2)it's like. really fun to experiment. staying in the same style/techniques/program forever sounds kinda boring anyhow.

hiding this era's drawings seems like a shame cuz they're genuinely really good. but letting them define my art now also seems like a shame too. so. we have the equilibrium. acceptance~~

i feel a lot less shame looking at my 21-22 works today. my newer stuff's different, sure, but calling one era of work 'better' than another is just really unfair imo. simpler or more mundane doesn't equate to being worse, it's a very limiting way of thinking. for what i make now, my art fits.

mostly, i just want to draw my hot characters in peace.