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 7-6-23  | artfight update

i mentioned in a previous entry that i wanted to gamble a lil and join team werewolf, but i ended up picking vampire in the end. i slightly regretted it when the event actually started and i realized literally 70% of my bookmarks are on my team,,, so i'd just invertedly signed myself up for ONLY doing friendly-fires thru the month NAURR ;o;

i was so close to switching teams but then i settled down when i realized team vamp was actually losing and i was a part of the underdogs now. instant team loyalty. still kinda pissed abt the friendly-fires thing tho. i've been thoroughly nerfed.

anyways heres my profile or whatever. follow and kill me dead

 7-6-23  | tedium

idk why, but it's so much easier for me to fall into burnout now guhhh. i got projects i still wanna work on, but starting em seems like more of a chore now ;o;

this site being kinda a huge example, like i wanna make some shrines and maybe another page to showcase some OC playlists. a lotta work thou....... think i just need to find more medias to become obsesed with again

 6-24-23  | artfight 2023 themes

oh wow o WOW this year's theme reveal came as such a suprise to me

with such powerhouses of potential prompts like "order vs chaos" and "creation vs destruction" i did not expect that "vampires vs werewolves" would be the final pick. ngl out of all of em tho, vamps vs werewolves has the most mascot potential n also aligns pretty well with previous themes... so i see why it was chosen but like.... personally i was rooting for "time vs space" myself <--- she is full of OC-themed biases

team picks this year are gonna be HARD though... previously my personal preferences would align exactly with one side, but this year i am SO very unsure. "vampire" is calling to me but i have a feeling numbers are gonna be incredibly skewed this year. EVERYONE's gonna pick team vampire mannnnn, "wither vs bloom" last year was so engaging imo cuz the numbers were so close but i have a feeling my werewolf folks might be the underdogs.......... which makes my gambling instincts tingle.

 6-23-23  | new layout

ok so i made a new layout for the site? i really dunno how i feel about this one guhh. old layout had this minimalist, metalic-like color scheme and while i didn't like it much at first, i'd gotten used to it by the time i whipped up this new softer, notebook-like look ;o;

old style:

the new vers def has its charm & def more cohesion,,,,, but im going thru some kinda stockholm syndrome rn lol. i wanna try and incorporate the darker gray colors into this new theme's colors somehow, i tried it a lil but i just. could not. get it to look right. rip.

oh well i guess that comes with running a website- constant changes & updates & fusses, i know i'll probs never be satisfied eheh. this new theme needs some work tho too-- i see so many mfs on neocities with the most cluttered and colorful websites with blinkers and weird shiny things that i dont even know how they put in there. & that's soso inspiring,,, i wanna clutter my site too but i gotta PLAN for it bc ik i'll probablay most likely trip over myself if not lol. mostly i wanna add more oranges and reds and browns guhhh.

 6-23-23  | album i've been listening to on repeat lately

there is no album that breaks me more than void fantasy by ada rook,

some of the phrases and gutteral instrumentals in these are so emotionally relatable to me even though im not sure where it all comes from. reaching "dream of escape" is like a punch to the gut man. although i def like ada's newer works more, this one just hits a little different ykwim.

this world is not my home....... man.