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the ending genuinely had my jaw open. as established from the previous chapter, memory is something loic cherishes SO DEARLY, so many times through these chapters has his reminiscing of better days acted as a comfort and anchor for him..... only for ysme to without a second thought - take away that memory in less than a second in a moment where he was TRYING HIS HARDEST to see the best in her. this person he cared about is gone before ysme even has the time to process what she'd done. genuinely really terrifying stuff what the fuckk. i got so choked up over scp-8980 for the exact same reason DAWG IM RLY SPEECHLESS... GUHHHHH........ and now what? fel doesn't remember she met loic.... and now loic doesn't remember nino AT ALL................ so..... tangentially related... there is no way in hell there is not a scene later down the line where he tries to kill himself in front of her right bcs that's what I WOULD HAVE DONE. loic a better man than me, i would have SNAPPED a GAZILLION times on this mere few-day's-trek omggggg. gigi was NAWT lying abt "when bad things happen to fictional characters and you're not kidding." they were not kidding. loooots of setup for ysme as well, where she's guaranteed to be confronted abt what she did when fel eventually does find them and for these mistakes to keep stacking and stacking. but it's not like loic's patience even helps ysme, in many ways it adds onto whatever the hell is going on with her. unrelated, after reading "the callous" description it's rly clear that the whole sovereignty thing provides the world with repeatedly terrible gods because the acts of the previous ones kept bringing out worse and worse hate for the world in the future generations. very sure that's why the voice of the sovereignty was so freaked out in ch1, bc they can see the cycle rearing its ugly head again. will ysme eventually learn to make a better world FR?? UM so far it's not looking good!! also she looks exactly like the builder what's up with that. her religious family who want to kill her are like looming ghosts at the back of my mind. cannot wait to see what the deal with that is.

ohhhh and tutu is such a sweetheart...... ive seen doodles of her on gigi's tumblr before ch2's release and was still so surprised when she showed up. don't even know what i can say about her arc, it's just tragic all around. pit in my stomach during the chimera reveal. geez. also absolutely adore the scenes where loic is able to bring her the same comfort that neymi did for her long ago. urkkkkkkk like a warm hug on the soulllll..............

also x2, i also love to death how ysme gets a new outfit for every big occasion, i love that for her. ouuu i so wish she'd kept her "the tested" fit a while longer that one was my favorite

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what eva tsunaka does to a mf

i cant believe i typed paragraphs upon paragraphs analyzing this character and explaining why she would not kill anyone, only for her to kill somebody in the first fucking chapter i cannot believe it. auuughhhh my shayla............. i fucking miss wolfgang too. i cannot believe this is the outcome. im clutching wenona tightly to me rn. nothing better happen to her next chapter istg. ISTG.... im so sad guys im so sadd.

i really do love her character writing, it's rare i see such a complex and fleshed out first culprit in these kinds of games, and especially rare to see such an extensive exploration of how bullying and isolation can cause dysfunctionally. so often we see a perfect victim in fiction and yet eva is so nuanced. even though she is clearly a capable person who is arrogant in her abilities, she's not confident in her self-actualization. her previous experiences with social isolation and bullying had implanted in her self-sabotaging habits and both a searing superiority complex AND victim complex, one where she deserves sooo much yet cannot possibly grow because something is always in the way. where no matter if someone is nice to her, she comes up with a reason why they really aren't. she tries to be intimidating, she lies and isolates herself, and then chastises the others when they're mean to her after the "mathlete" reveal, when in reality, the shock of the lie is what caused their distrust, not her talent itself. nobody would have given a fuck if she'd just been genuine from the start AND YET SHE DOESN'T REALIZE THIS. she does all of these mental gymnastics and self-sabotaging because she EXPECTS hatred as a DEFAULT- she doesn't give herself a chance to even TRY. it was only FOUR DAYS into the killing game yet it was already far too much for her. it's easier for her to antagonize herself, to kill, because she EXPECTS no way out. the tragedy of her death is that she did it to herself. it's sad that her life wasn't easy, it's sad that she never got a chance to grow, it's sad that the others were at fault for antagonizing her, and it's sad that she is also at fault for how she ended up as a culprit.

I FUCKING MISS HERRR I MISS HER SO MUCH

crazy happenings in this viewing experience: i got wrongly spoiled TWICE. i accidentally scrolled down into the comments section of the daily life video and in the corner of my vision, i saw a comment tht said: "it makes sense that W[...] was the first one to die" and i only saw the letter "W" and was SO SO pissed off because i thought i'd been spoiled and that WENONA was gonna die. in my rage i forgot that wolfgang existed. so when the body reveal cinematic happened, i was SO SHOCKED. FLABBERGASTED OUT OF MY MIND THAT IT WAS WOLFGANG FUCKING AKIRE. i had to scream and pace around my room, i cant describe the raw emotion i felt in that moment. considering his behavior in the prologue, i expected him to die the LEAST out of all the cast. top 10 fangan moments. im still so so giddy over this twist.

AND THEN- YEAH? AND THEN? i was scrolling on twitter and saw an unspoilered image of diana's speech CG- AND I THOUGHT THAT DIANA KILLED WOLFGANG AND THAT SPEECH WAS HER CONFESSION. but NO. when she was built up as a red herring during the trial, i thought it was already over- that's it- she killed him. AND THEN IT CONTINUED FOR ANOTHER 4 HOURS. AND EVA WAS THE REAL KILLER. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK.......... THE MOST INSANE WHIPLASH OF EMOTIONS DURING A SINGLE FANGAN CHAPTER I'VE EVER EXPERIENCED. I WISH I'D LIVE-BLOGGED IT.

it's really interesting how vastly my opinions on wolfgang flipped from ch0 to ch1 lol. i thought he was rly charming and interesting up until he crashed out at the mock trial and then suddenly i lost all interest. this line of thinking continued until he died in ch1 but then the shock of his death suddenly made me love him again. and then when the flashback happened and we saw him disheveled stumbling and sobbing he shot up like 3 ranks higher in the tier list LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

jokes aside, i unironically adore his character. a hook has been cast. even though his backstory has already been implied thru his FTEs and envelope, i feel like there is still much complexity to him that hasn't yet been revealed. i think he's a fascinating character. his inclination to be morally correct in order to chase the legacy of his mother, despite having (what i think is) the temper of his father? UGH IT'S PEAK. i feel so very sad for him. the way both him, eva, AND damon all share the same complicated struggle of diluted self-image and the need to prove themselves. somebody hold me back im about to CRASH OUT. the three of them deserved to live and work out their differences and all be buddies man IM GONNA CRASH OUT.

i think damon is SUCH a refreshing MC, how despite the subversion of having an "asshole MC" that he isn't edgy or one-note at all.

his identity is directly intertwined with being a debater- it's his ace and his defining quality which he wants others to see him for soooo BAD. he's spent so long trying to prove himself so when he encounters those with non-academic talents, it makes sense he'd be dismissive and rude, which, bummer. but when someone DOES come along with accolades that align with his standards he is SOOO fucking intimated LOLLL. he clearly is capable of respect and admiration yet his ego often gets in the way. he thinks he's being cool and stoic and confident and yet EVERYBODY CLOCKS HIM as NOT that, IT'S SO FUNNY. toshiko gives him a cute nickname, ingrid babies him, cassidy pokes fun at him, kai looks to him for safety. HE'S SUCH A DORK LOLL. i think he's very interesting and i enjoy the dichotomy he brings, where despite his rudeness, it never comes across as "too much" imo. i actually find it really easy to root for him

it's very easy to say that killing off wolfgang and eva is "wasted potential" - for like a week after my watchthrough i thought the exact same thing. i watched thru both the prologue and ch1 again recently though and it kinda made me realize that a lottt of that perceived potential was me trying to see FAR too much into the future. i was aware of the meta - of the DR format and i EXPECTED wolfgang and eva to be the designated rival and ally. it felt like all the conflict that was built up for 2 chapters, establishing cornerstones of conflicts thought to be overarching, had just been discarded and slammed closed in my face. now tho, i think that this feeling is nowhere the fault of the writing or narrative setup - it's simply cuz the i knew the DR format. while it makes sense to be disappointed by the outcome, these twists it weren't as cruel and door-slam-y as i initially perceived. and the longer i think about it, the more it makes me unbearably curious what the crew will do for ch2. i'll admit i don't like the idea of diana as an antagonist to damon, and i hope that she'll grow on me more. it's too simple really, but i know not to underestimate the writers so i'll hold the rest of my thoughts.

OK. narrative decisions aside... who are my OTHER favorite characters because my OG favorites just fucking killed each other? i think right now, it goes: (1) damon, (2) ulysses, (2) wenona

ooughhhhhh i reaaaaaally like ulysses. despite him being one of the more gimmick-y characters imo, i think all of his little oddities combined makes him a very endearing yet fascinating character. like. goodness gracious i love this insomniac conspiratorial chronically ill forgetful history nerd. i truly wish his FTEs were more interesting, it was only until the final 2 that we finally got something opinionated - i want to know more about his fear of death and his conspiracies about the world nearing collapse. as a historian, surly he is hyper-aware of old patterns reeling their heads - how does this play into how he uses his ultimate? how desperately he stays diligent in his work at the cost of his health? ughhhhhhhhh i initially didn't like him all that much but ch1 made me grow on him sooo much.

as for wenona, i have always loved confident, wry, self-assured women characters. there is something about the businesswoman archetype as well that just gets me so giddy. i loved reading through wenona's FTEs, she has such an interesting and engaging life and listening to her walk thru her past decisions and how she views her clan is so curious. especially considering her imitation/echo arts, i wonder if she betrayed them in some way? it's VERY likely that she's a much worse person than we've seen so far (also considering "unions" is one of her dislikes LOL) and i cannot WAIT to see what the team does with her and i. i actually can't take it man i want to see more of her AUUUGHHH I WANNA KNOW MORE. it's kILLING ME LET ME INNN LET ME INNN.

additionally, given that wenona is sharing ulysses' spot as my current favorite (u cant make me choose), i am naturally a ulywen shipper ahaha~ *GETS SHOT* *GETS SHOT* *GETS SHOT* *GETS SHOT* *GETS SHOT*

here is my general character ranking

ok that's it, good bye